All Alone

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Many years ago I went through a very difficult time in my life. Everything was turned upside down and I did not know which way to turn. Nothing helped. It was during this time that I felt like Job…lost and alone. So, like Job I questioned God. asking why I did not find help in my time of need. I, unlike Job, did not get a scathing reply, but in time things did level out and life was as good as it ever was before.

WHERE WERE YOU GOD?
WHERE WERE YOU GOD // WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST
WHEN MY LIFE COLLAPSED AND MY LIFE TURNED BLACK?

GOD // WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I EXPECTED THAT YOU CARED
WHEN I BELIEVED // I TRUSTED // AND THOUGHT YOU HEARD?

WHERE WAS THE PROMISED PEACE OF MIND…
THAT THROUGH DIFFICULT TIMES I DID NOT FIND?

WHEN I WALKED THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW OF DEATH
I FEARED EVERY EVIL // I FELT ALL THE PAIN

WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I CRIED OUT IN PAIN
WHEN I PLEADED // I BEGGED // AND CALLED YOUR NAME?

WHEN I HURT SO BAD I WISHED I COULD DIE,
WERE YOU THERE TO SEE // DID YOU HEAR MY CRY?

I COULD NOT TELL // I FELT LEFT TO FATE…
WITH NO WAY TO HELP // BEFORE IT WAS TOO LATE

WOULD ALL THAT HAPPENED, HAVE HAPPENED ANYWAY
OR WERE YOU THERE // WHAT DO YOU SAY?

WHERE WERE YOU GOD, WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST?

~1995~

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Where Were You God…

Where Were You God When I Needed You Most…?

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Questioning God does not separate us from his love. When I heard of the shooting of several police officers in Dallas, TX this past week, this  question again came to mind. I thought about the families of those involved in recent police shootings and wondered how they were coping.  In my own experience. I went through some dark times in my mid-life that left me feeling alone with this same unanswerable question. Even though I was a person of faith, I did not find  the peace of mind that I was taught God would give me in my time of need. It was a very difficult time for me, as I am sure it is for those who are grieving  for their lost loved ones. The Bible tells us that nothing can separate us from God’s love.  Even our doubts and questions do not change God’s love for us.  This poem expresses some of my feelings, questions, and doubts during that time.  My heart goes out to the grieving families at this time.

Where were you God when I needed you most

When my life collapsed

And the one I loved will never come back

God, where were you when I believed you cared

When I trusted you to direct my path

Where was the promised peace of mind

That through difficult times I did not find

When I walked through the valley of the shadow of death

I feared every evil I felt all the pain

Where were you when I cried out in pain

When I pleaded I begged I called out your name

When I hurt so bad I wished I could die

Were you there to see did you hear my cry

I could not tell

I felt alone left to fate

With no way to help before it’s too late

Would all that happened have happened anyway

Or were you there

What do you say?

Where were you God

When I needed you most?